Black & White
Me, taken on the 1.8.11
Photography: Samuel Nicolausson
It’s impossible to explain feeling that this picture so honestly portrays.
As it is impossible to come to terms with the reason behind this feeling.
Heartbreak, is something a wise person once told me, is a beautiful feeling, as without heartbreak, there would have never been love. To think of never sharing that love with someone, is worse than the heartbreak, that is true. But to think of all the memories, the moments, the happiness and the journey, is when I find my heart truly breaking. The company we shared and the way in which we helped one another is beyond anything we could have comprehended when our paths crossed in life. For that, I am eternally grateful. I believe a soulmate is someone who can make you the most “you”, you can possibly be. And she did that for me, no questions asked. It’s her turn to fly, and find herself, if you love someone, sometimes you just have to let them go. So now I shall embrace the end of this chapter, and the beginning of a new. She will be missed, always. But she will be there, always.
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I find myself here, again.
Wherever this is, whoever I am.
I’ve never felt so week, nor strong.
I acknowledge that it’s all over. And simultaneously, a brand new begining.
Alone, a daunting yet empowering concept.
Being without you, is nothing but daunting.
You gave me strength & love, for that I will be forever grateful.
You taught me much more about myself than I could have ever imagined, and there was love, so much love.
A whirwind of emotions rushes through every inch of my being and I feel like I’m slowly dying.
Knowing I wont wake up to you makes waking up seem useless, pointless, yet it’s inevitable.
Life must go on, time will go on, regardless. And I’ve been told that time makes it easier.
Time spent without you will never be easy.
However, everything happens for a reason. I have loved. I have learned what it is like to love.
It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.
I just wish I never lost you..
